2,000 days since I had my last drink..who would of thought??
I don’t ever count days anymore but think about how many day’s that is?!?! Is wild!! I knew in my soul there would be a day I was going to live a life without alcohol. I just didn’t know, when or how I was going to get there. I eventually did get to that point and on that day on 8/18/12 I finally chose a different route then the one I was on for the previous decade. Has Recovery been easy..absolutely not! Some days it’s the pits but other days your like Fuck yes, I own this shit… I see you Recovery and I got this!! It won’t be easy, it will not be perfect, you may(you for sure will and that’s ok) eat a lot of sugar those first few years and question everything but I promise you it’s all worth it.
Sobriety has brought me peace within my self and a life I’m beyond grateful for because I make the daily choice to wake up another day sober.
How many of you always said, “I will start fresh on Monday” after a complete shit show of drinking/using?!??
I did for years. It was always Monday I will start this new change of behavior with my drinking. I won’t take shots anymore, I will only drink wine, NO more cocaine, Absolutely no more Jager/Jameson/Grand Marnier, I won’t be mean to people anymore when hammered, if I can just get thru this hangover and not die god I will quit drinking?!?!? I’m sure there are a few of you that have been down this road or said these exacts words. Well today is Monday and on this Monday you have the power to STOP the madness. Just know that stopping the insanity does consist of putting the bottle or the drugs down completely. There is no in between for us alcoholics and addicts. There just isn’t, so stop telling yourself you can control it. You can’t. I can’t. We can’t. Our brains are not programmed that way. It’s ok to be powerless over something, it doesn’t make you a bad person, it makes you human. I’m powerless over alcohol and I am at peace with it.
Took some time to get here but it does for all. Maybe this is the final Monday for you?!?