Sober in Mexico

Sober in Mexico!

I had some anxiety doing this trip solo, as in not having my husband with me or a sober pal. Last time i was in Mexico I had all the tequila and mind erasers in the world. I didn’t know how sober Mexico would look with just me being around people who did part take in drinking. Not everyone who drinks has a problem and I made a decision 2 years into my recovery I wasn’t going to FEAR alcohol anymore. Yes, tons of uncomfortable feelings pushing thru a fear but it has to be done if you want the life you had imagined for yourself. Traveling for me is on top of that list. If i continue to fear booze, my circle and life would be very, very small. I want to see and live the world and alcohol is everywhere. There is no escaping it. I’m grateful for the friends in my life who do participate in drinking that always make sure I’m comfortable and ok! Love the ladies I’m with on this trip and appreciate the vibes

Again, you have to be ready with whatever situation you push yourself thru but let me tell you once you do it’s the most empowering thing ever!! Sober me is having a time here btw…. Sober As Fuck since 8/18/12

Xoxo,

CMA

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Throwback

This is what my active addiction looked liked.

When people tell you drugs and alcohol aren’t cool, believe them. Lots of cocaine and heavy nightly drinking during these years of my active addiction. I thought I was cool but I actually wasn’t. The best part about this picture is in fact around this time of my life I knew in the pit of my soul that one day I would be sober, I knew it was the alcohol that lead me to drugs and this depressing, lonely, chaotic, shameful life i was living. I knew I didn’t want to keep on this ride anymore but at the time I didn’t know how to get off. It would only take about another 4-5 years later of having a 100th rock bottom for me finally to say fucking enough already. Thank the universe I did, I won’t say I wish i did it early because things happen how they are suppose to. But I will say I am a lucky one to have escaped what addiction ultimately does to a person and that is death. It’s not dramatic, it’s true. Addiction is life or death! I wake up every day and choose life, it was a hard fight for the first few years but you slowly ease into the life you should be living because trust when I say, no one deserves to live in addiction. With choosing recovery the door of opportunities opened to me for life, love, friendships, business and just the world. It can for you too, I promise but you have to stick with it even on the days you feel like you can’t breathe.

Recovering out loud since 8/18/12 If you need help and are ready, reach out!!

Xoxo,

CMA